Feeling it today

Yes, it’s Fathers day. That makes it a lot harder of course. This is not the first Fathers day I’ve missed. If I really think about it, I think I’ve missed quite a few. The National Guard has a habit of scheduling the “two week” annual training over Fathers day. Between that and deployments, you’d think I’d be ok with it. It just seems more difficult this time.

I think that’s because this time it’s self inflicted.

It’s days like this that force you to be introspective. Not that I haven’t been doing a ton of that lately. Maybe today more than most.

I’m doing ok and I had a good day. I guess I’m just feeling quiet. Calm. Maybe a little depressed if I’m being honest. I’m glad I’m with family today or it would be overwhelming.

I had a good conversation with my son. He was home alone for the weekend and still called. That meant a lot to me.

The rest of the family was with my wife’s parents and sister in Park City. I got to talk with all of them later. They’re a crazy crew, especially when they’re all trying to talk at the same time.

I even got to talk with my dad for a few minutes.

I hope everyone out there had a good day.

I’m back on the road tomorrow and really looking forward to this next section.